BY NOT KNOWING I KNOW

“What do you want to do when you grow up?”

“What do you want to become?”

“Who do you want to be?”

I find it funny how these questions are asked our entire childhood, yet at the age of 20 I still cannot answer any of them. Not even close. At least I know I am not the only one at that. I have dreams and ideas, but no spesific job or future I have set my mind to. And truth is, dreams change. I mean, at the age of 4 I wanted to be a princess of some sort. At the age of 10 I wanted to be a professional gymnast. At 13, a photographer. At 15 everything started to sound interesting. I felt like I could become a lawyer, a pilot, an engineer, some sort of business woman, or even a designer. And at 18 fashion became a priority.

Today is no different. I am holding on to all of my dreams. Even the princess one haha! Though I am choosing my direction by applying to business schools, I am still fashion obsessed and a photography freak. I still care about what’s right and wrong in terms of politics and justice. I still want to travel the world and I still want to design and create something. Additionally, I have new dreams.

So it’s not exactly getting any easier to answer those questions. And mayebe it never will. Maybe I don’t have to. Maybe one day I will just end up in a position I truly enjoy and be like “this is it”. Maybe. I wouldn’t mind it. The great thing about not knowing is that you are not making any wrong decisions by studying this or that, or saying yes or no to that job offer. That kind of makes me sleep better at night haha.

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